Monday, June 26, 2006

yah so yesterday, to celebrate the end of the hols, me and et and sam went out! by the way sam is a GIRL ok!! then first we went to the beach which was UBER fun lah. we like frolicked arpund like lambs then we played WATER TAG. the water is quite dirty actually. then after wasting time.. aiya i no energy to write lah. if you want to know what happened just approach me. or sam or et. haha sorry i disappointed you mann. i really dont have the energy..HAIZ oh but we went to harbourfront. where i was nice enough to treat them to MACS! haha oh oh oh and this stupid guy crashed into a mirror it was UBER funny mann. oh then we went to sams house she is FRIGGEN rich serious!! oh and she totally ROCKS my SOCKS! whoopeeee and et was uber fun. the hols are over. which means i don't see them for quite a while. )=

A Beautiful Disaster at Monday, June 26, 2006

Sunday, June 25, 2006

SO PEOPLE today was FUN FUN FUN!!! but before i tell you all that, in 9hours EXACTLY, we will awaken to take our places in the new term of the school year. how tragic. also, "i am your best friend' person, i will blog about my cca some other day. ok? and Anni feels touched that all those weirdo people actually read her blog.

and ama, i am tempted to lash out at you as you say my blog entries are 'draggy' or 'nonsense' as this is after all MY blog and as itd title suggests, if you do not like the things i post, you might as well PISS OFF (= anyway. i didnt mean that to sound mean my dear, it was mere constructive opinions haha TAKE THAT YOU!!

anyway. oh crap. i feel tired and sleepy, i shall tell you about my FAB day out today! LATER

A Beautiful Disaster at Sunday, June 25, 2006

Friday, June 23, 2006

SO today was rather fun actually. i woke up at 6 in the morning, then went to school. IN THE RAIN. cuz my beloved daddy had to go and drop my mother off at some place in the morning and if he took me to school, she would be late. Furthermore, he had the guts to say that it was practice for school which reopens on monday. THEN i went to school. partially drenched where i meet violet. later shimin. so we are sitting outside till sherrie comes then we decided to go in(apperantly tiffany had come to school earlier than us but we couldnt find her.she ended up in the foyer..) then shi min exclaims that suvi is sitting on the bench. But actually its not. the girl seemed awfully familiar though. so later while we were fixing stuff, i decided to visit the girl. who SADLY turned out to be VIDYA, like what?? then i asked her what she was doing in school so early. and in her slurry guyish,sharabi voice, she says "i've got traning" so i am like whatevar. then for some awkward reason, she follows me into the KS CHEE, and she is like 'is aruna here" and i am like not yet. but she doesnt believe me! so she searches for herself..which is rather despo lah. but i shall keep my other nasty comments to myself. it was funny though. then come my batchmates. they're all REALLY nice. i am not kidding. serious. maybe we DO have some misunderstandings. but still. and i think shi min is like UBER nice. and VERY VERY cute =p i also think that xin tian is VERY nice to us. although she does scold us sometimes. but its because we are screwing up. its not her fault. we should take it positively. i shall give her something to show my appreciation..once i think of what i want to give her. anyway enough of mushy could haves and should haves. i don't DO that stuff. then while we are exploring the UNDERSEAT SPACE, this weirdo person ambushes me, well maybe that is too strong a word. atfirst i don't really register who it is. then i realise its hannah ng, cuz she was asking for her present. SELFISH PERSON. she didnt even say 'hi' )= anyway but i didnt feel like going and getting my bag from that mess and piles of bags. then she goes away huffily with her posse of basketballer friends. like WHATEVER YOU.ok i sounded mean. i didnt mean to. anyway. then nat tai spoke to us. then tag run. which i think was rather well done!! YAY US! but i don't know what the seniors thought about it. i didnt stay till the end. me and kyung tae left for little gui lin. BY BUS! haha it was fun. KT is just as retarted as me. WE ARE NOT, i repeat NOT normal. we were like being weird in the bus, attracting queer stares from the other commuters. haha then met mansi and emily and miin at cck mrt. i tell you mansi's timing is HORRIBLE she calls me up to say that she will meet me in 30mins. then 5minutes later she tells me that she is there already. then we went to cck thank GOD other people were there. cuz i assure you. mansi has no sense of direction what-so-ever. you have to admire her quality of managing to get lost even when the instructions are DEAD clear. and thats why i like my retarded old friend MUNCHY(a.k.a mansi)!!! anyway. then after that, we went to the block, where i met my long lost bestie. HANIS! well she isnt like long lost..but i didnt see her for like 2 weeks lah. so long RITE. then we were our retarded selves. we also discussed how tweety bird is HOMO!! haha she is classic. someone you can never forget! just like my OTHER friend..MUNCHY! then we decided to go to the MRT. so me and hanis hop happily to the mrt, singing nursery rhymes while mansi(and gang) and chern hwee(and gang) tag alone behind us. we take the mrt to CHOA CHU KANG to have LUNCH! then before the door is closing, mansi pushes me then my EXPENSIVE guess wallet is like threatening to fall...and then we do these weird chain of hand actions to try to save it, well i was trying to save it, but munchy was trying to steal it from me haha. then hanis said that what we were doing looked wrong, cuz we were basically hitting each other..like from neck level to knee level..like EW..okay i am not a very good EXPLAINER... so bear with me. (actually then mansy things happened, it was funny, but i am too lazy to explain)then we went to eat with zhi qi and ricchi. where me and mansi have a long discussion on cookies which we were to bake. like using hersheys kisses cuz we didnt have choco chips and that useless stuff. then i treated her to BUBBLE TEA!! then just now, we played badminton..see we are so healthy!! like real haha. then we played AIR BADMINTON hahah ok..you wouldnt get what i was saying unless you are as weird as ME! anyway...a lot lot more happened. OKAY MUNCHY CAN BLUSH TO THE COLOUR OF HER BRIGHT PINK SHIRT!! ok redundant. haha ahh to be continued in due time. which means i will continue if i ever feel like it. which i doubt i will..i will most probably forget anyway....

PEACE PEOPLE

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A Beautiful Disaster at Friday, June 23, 2006

Thursday, June 22, 2006

if fate has decided to be cruel, i am not going to just let it happen,just let it flow. I am going to fight it back.
i am falling into the grasps of uber pissyness BUT before i am consumed by it thoroughly...i shant do anything. bye bye.

A Beautiful Disaster at Thursday, June 22, 2006

Friday, June 16, 2006

a cute poem!!

The Day I Got My Finger Stuck Up My Nose

When I got my finger stuck up my nose
I went to a doctor, who said,
"Nothing like this has happened before,
We will have to chop off your head.""It's only my finger stuck up my nose,

It's only my finger!" I said.
"I see what it is," the doctor replied
"But we'll still have to chop off your head.

"He went to the cabinet and took out an axe.
I watched with considerable dread.
"But it's only my finger stuck up my nose.
It's only a finger!" I said.

"Perhaps we can yank it out with a hook
Tied to some surgical thread.
Maybe we can try that," he replied
"Rather than chop off your head."

"I'm never going to pick it again.
I've now learned my lesson," I said.
"I won't stick my finger up my nose -
I'll stick it in my ear instead."

Brian Patten

A Beautiful Disaster at Friday, June 16, 2006

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SO FUN SO FUN !! ld camp ROCKED! lol ill continue later. i gotta go bathe now..i just came back HAHA

A Beautiful Disaster at Friday, June 16, 2006

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Hannah looks into the mirror.
She does not catch the eye of the girl in it. She is afraid, frightened, of what she would see. She looked at the raven black hair, obscuring an eye; the sallow, pale skin; the svelte waist; the slender epitome. With a sigh, she picked up her bag and walked out of the room.
She passes the study. Books were strewn haphazardly everywhere. She looks at them in disgust. 'Books, what good were they?'she thought. She took one up, and her nose crinkled. ‘Ways to communicate with your child’, ‘Emotional Control’, ‘How to tell your child you love him/her’. Useless self-help books. Hannah threw them away. Her mum never loved her.
"Stop deluding yourself," she whispers. It did not turn out the way she wants it and she whimpers. Her voice sounds weak, a harsh whisper.
She walks to the kitchen, a familiar fluttering of paper catching her ears. Automatically, she heads for the refrigerator.
‘Breakfast is on the table. You know that I love you. Love, Mum.’ The note reads.
Hannah scrunches it up and it dropps into the bin, almost soundlessly, the faintest noise of paper against paper, other notes that she throws away as well. She eats the breakfast, and walks toward school.
That handsome boy walking through the corridors smiles at Hannah, a sparkle of recognition in his eyes. She smiles back in acknowledgement, for he is her god brother. A wink was another thing they exchanged, and satisfied that he got her message, she walked off. The girls around her looks in envy, it is not everyday that Chris ever smiles at them. Hannah reaches into her pocket as she walks away. Her present was safe.
Chris was waiting for her at the basketball court, where Hannah stood, in solitary silence. He beams at her, and Hannah feels a sudden pang of sadness. She was desolate, alone. His warm smile did not warm her icy heart. But she smiles back anyway; he was too nice to her. They walk down the road, side by side, talking about daily topics. The weather, school, and how things were going on for both of them. "Good," she hears herself say, but her fingers are crossed. Chris looks almost perfect, perhaps with the exception of the haircut Mum had forced him to cut. She really has bad taste. She is bad.
They crossed the road, walked down the streets, and now, through the dark alley. Chris’s always worried for her. "Molesters and rapists," he says. Such a sweet brother. She should love him. But Hannah didn’t.
"Chris."
He stopped, and turned to her, anticipation dancing in his eyes.
"Happy birthday," she breaths, and thrust her present into his stomach. A dagger. His knees buckle, while her eyes twinkled in delight. His fingers wrapped around the dagger in sheer agony, his knuckles turning white. She wanted him to fall, to close his eyes, to show that he is weak, but he did not. He continued kneeling, and painfully, slowly, lifted up his beautiful head.
"I figured…someday something bad would…h-happen. Considering…t-that your mum" a gasp "poisons you with loving…meaningless words every day." He chokes. He could speak no further, and Hannah feels her self satisfaction growing extensively more. Until he points his finger to his heart.
"Love…" he whispers.
She knew what he meant. It was a secret sign they used to have when they were younger. Her abusive father hated the word ‘love’. Chris and she used it whenever they wanted to express their affection for each other. She shakes her head in disbelief. That was when she was young and naïve. No one could possibly love her. Those who do are liars. She shuts her eyes tight, willing herself to stop letting Chris affect her so.
There was a sudden sound of footsteps. Hannah spins around, and her eyes interlocks with a boy’s. He had seen her, but she merely smiles and walked on.
Mum was home when she got back. Her heart was a void, unfeeling and cold; it has been so ever since the day Mum said those words to her.
"You don’t love me, Mum."
"I do. I love you more than anyone in the world."
"Then why is there Chris? Am I not enough for you?"
"I just needed a boy. Something different."
"Chris is perfect. You love him. You hate me."
"No, love. I love both of you."
"Then why do you keep me at home every day?"
"That’s because you are too adorable for other people to look at. They may want to snatch you away from me."
"Why do you make sure my hair covers my face every second before I got to school? Am I too ugly for you?"
"Your cheek…but you're beautiful in your own way"
"Liar! Liar! Liar!"
Hannah covered her ears, the words still resonating in her mind so clearly after so many years. Mum is in the study again. Those good for nothing books. Nothing she does now will change Hannah and how much her hatred burns for her. She enters her room soundlessly, basking in the excitement of seeing the reaction on her mum’s face when the news of Chris’s death reaches her.
She looked into the mirror.
She caught the eye of the girl in it. She was no longer afraid, frightened, of what she would see. She looked at the neck length shiny raven black hair, obscuring her pretty eyes; the sallow, pale skin; the svelte waist; the slender epitome.
Again.
But this time, she combed her hair back, making it tuck behind her ears. Her left cheek was horribly disfigured; yet was she ugly? She did not want to believe it. But the truth remains, Hannah was beautiful.
She heard the sound of sirens approaching her house. The moment it stopped, Mum burst into her room, wide-eyed in shock. Horror, disbelief and anguish filled her contorted face.
So this is her reaction.
Hannah smiles, listening to the scattered footsteps of the policemen outside her room.
She is in peace.
"I hate you."
Who said it? It did not matter.
They hated each other.

A Beautiful Disaster at Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Friday, June 09, 2006

EE-yup folks! and im back! now i have a series of awards to present to some VERY special people! well i shall present one prize every time i update my blog! to start off with, i shall present the "BEST TABLE-MATE AWARD 2006" and the award goes to!! *drumroll*

CHENG LIQI
this prize has been presented to the above mentioned for her invaluable support and caring and love! she totally RAWKS! i feel that she has been an unforgettable contributer to my life in rgs so far. she is really helpful and very nice!
GO LIQI GO LIQI uh-huh-uh-huh
(but she still hasnt replied my letter..HRMP)
world cup starts TONITE!

A Beautiful Disaster at Friday, June 09, 2006

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

ok so i am pretty bored lah so i shall name 8 people?pairs of people that rock my world. oh by the way, i chose 8 because i was born on the eighth! haha.ego!! ok so:
[ in no particular order ]
1) E.T (eunice TOH)/SAMMY POO!!! They are like my bestest-est-est frens for quite a long time. They are fun loving, and crazier than ME! ahah <3333333333
2) Wen Fei&Falee- they're uber nice. and though we aren't like soul-mates that know each other to the deepest ends of our hearts, they still RAWK my SAWKS! They're easy to be around and never makes me feel bad. They are also like so understanding and know how to have the best times of their lives!! YAY GURLZ!
3) Hanis- She's REALLY sweet. and so fun to be with and get high with! ahha she laughs a LOT and is uber hyper! =p she's like one of the nicest people in 108 and that i have met so far! need i say more?
4) Xin ping and Amalina- They are so CUTE and make me feel accpeted! (plus xp hugs me everyday!! haha) they are sweet and never mean. YOU DUDES ROCK!
5) Lava&Lee- they are so CARING and nice and understanding and bonded! they are very mood lifting and funny! and they cutest part, they are almost always TOGETHER! haha
6)Mansi - i knw her for like more than half my life? she's very very very nice. but pathetic and dumb too..aww its ok mansi i still heart you! HAHA( i hope you are reading this wahahaa)
7) Taz - This person..has recently turned emo. for some awkward and weird reason. but i knw her since forever. and i LOVE her! she's very very very nice ( although very evil sometimes) she's always there for me. GO YOU!! and she's currently mad at me. *sobs* but i still think she rawks!! [ and she is too rich for her own good. im jealous]
(She comes under 7 too)Rafiyat- just something random, her birthday is the same day as my brother's! she UBER caring.. a person you can depend on ALL the time. like she's always there for everyone! she has a HUGE heart and is very very very very sweet and i also know her since forever. i love her LOTS.
8) Japna and Ankita - they are very very very nice to me. serious i don't know what i would do without you guys (=
ps: the above was my sincere comments. i really mean it. i think you guysgirls rawk!!
oh and one (SMALL SMALL) guy that rawks my world,
1) NABIHAN - he is the most rocking 5 year old kid in the history of this world. you dont get brothers like this one. he is so totally someone that is there for me..EVERYTIME. i spend a lot of time with him and everyday, i grow to love him more and more. GO NABIHAN! (Edit/: nabihan is 6 now.)

A Beautiful Disaster at Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

ok..i knw its a bit too late to be blogging abt this but i was busy..so yah!

AND since i am so lazy, imma go shortcut on the sl project meeting it was quite fun actually(i brought CHOCOLATE!). and again, cuz i am lazy, u can just go read what happened in the beginning by visiting AMALINA's blog! ---------------> www.confessionsofthisgurl.blogspot.com haha..see ama, i am promoting ur bloggie. lol and if u read that, u would understand the folowing rubbish
so after chasing cars like crazy , we went to preserve leaves. so me and ama and VAL VAL volunteered... then we went to the other room. i ironed the leaves, ama held the box and valerie got the dirty job of seperating the bad leaves from the good ones. ahha then after doing, we went to collect leaves. valerie got the scooter, then ama took the big bike, i took the small one..then i forgot eexactly what happened, valerie was telling me something, then suddenly, she FELL. it was a bit scary. then after watching her ice her wound me and ama went collecting..well we DID collect. but we also spent a hell lotta time SWINGING and CYCLING to our hearts delight. and we were a bit high lah..it was so FUN! haha then we went back after like so long to hanis' house. then han fed the neighbour's dog batteries. we were like freaked out. then THE BRAVE japna, went and saved the dog from perishing. lol ok.. so the drama then we had more fun..then at the house, while we were eating, wei ying said something funny, then everyone was like laughing..then when everyone almost stopped laughing, i realised that it was really funny, then i busrt out laughing..then ama laughed after me, then she CHOKED like omgshers yah lah..then more stuff happened.. i forgot.. but basically i enjoyed myself! and thats what happened in our first ever SL meeting!
- end of story-

A Beautiful Disaster at Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Saturday, June 03, 2006

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LoL..so i haveta do 2 quizzy things..well lava gave me first so i shall answer to hers first!

"ok this is how the game goes[:u have to express 8 points u wld want ur perfect lover to be.u have to state the gender of the lover ]:u have to tagg 8 victims..[hehehheehehe]and finally leave a comment on their blog[:ok here goes]:< (oh joy"
that was taken frm darling lava's blog.. well in answer to that...MY PERFECT LOVER WOULD BE MY FUTURE BOYFRIEND TO-BE!! lol...and here goes.
He must :

1) be _ _ _ _ _ _ (my hot future bf)
2) look like HIM
3) be as sweet as HIM
4) be as HOT as HIM
5) be as polite as HIM
6) must treasure, as HE does(well i duno if he does, BUT HE HAS TO).
7) ask me out as HE will soon
8) dunno..be rich?

haha next quiz.

Instructions : Name 20 people you can think at the top of your head. don't read the questions before you write, and tag 10 people to do this survey.

1) Mansi
2) Ama
3) Xin Ping
4) Wen fei
5) Falee
6) Liqi
7) Lava
8) Amelia
9) Miin
10) Rafiyat
11) Taz
12) Azira
13) Derek
14) Joel
15) Aaron
16) Adnan
17) PETE WENTZ
18) Ed
19) June
20) Orlando Bloom

how do you meet 14?
Joel. erm..school?
what would you do if you never met 1?
Mansi. She's like my BEST fren..i would like feel empty?
what would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
Miin and Orlando Bloom. ill so kill them. Miin for two timing me and him. and him for not loving me!!
did you ever like 19?
June. DUH!! she so NICE!!
would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
Liqi and Pete Wentz. yes they are both really nice people.but sadly pete is MINE
describe 3.
Xin ping. she is UBER sweet. and very very nice. and i <3>
do you think 8 is attractive?
Amelia. Yes, she is quite pwetty.
tell me something about 7.
Lava. IS SO NICE and CARING and is so SWEET to everyone!!! need i say more?
do you know any of 12's family?
Azira. erm..not really.i dont know her well. but i will FIND OUT.
what is 8's favourite?
Amelia. Why you so interested in her? She loves SAILING!
what would you do if 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
Ed. erm..he is YOUNGER than me? so..i will kinda freak out.
what language does 15 speak?
Aaron. English and Chinese..
who is 9 going out with?
Miin. Uh i think she is going out with UH...ME!
how old is 16 now?
Adnan.erm 16?
when was the last time you talked to 13?
Derek. last weekwho's 2's favourite band/singer?
would you date 4
Wen Fei. If she were a guy, why not?
would you date 7?
Lava. and if she were a guy..sure
is 15 single
Aaron. yes. the last time i checked.
what's 10's last name?
Rafiyat. Rob(spelling?). im so CLEVER
would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
Taz. erm we have been friends like forever. that serious enough?
what school does 3 go to?
Xin Ping.Raffles Girls' School..she is in my class DUH
where does 6 live
Liqi. erm..i think in Kembangan
what's your favourite thing about 5?
Falee. SHE RAWKS!!

now the fun part.

I TAG!!

erm..

1) AMA
2) WEN FEI
3) FALEE
4) LAVA
5) LIQI
6) TIAN YUAN
7) RAFIYAT
8) XIN PING

A Beautiful Disaster at Saturday, June 03, 2006

Friday, June 02, 2006

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ohkay so this is a very weird day so far. my friends were at my house. and we were having a BLAST of a time!! it was awesome!! haha anyway at a point, we were disussing drugs, drinking, stealing and lying. and, i would NEVER steal. Now you might say that'a because i pretty much get everything i want. And while that isn't exactly true, it is definitely true that i've never known what it's like to really need something (like food, unless you count the time when i was 7 and very hungry after having dinner and the maid refused to give me anything to eat, saying i was a pig.like WHAT THE HELL!! and the occasional times im broke...) and not be able to afford it. So maybe i shouldn't say 'never' and just say that under my socio-economic circumstances, i would NOT steal.

But the lying part..that was a bit trickier. Because if you're going to be technical about it, ofcourse i tell various sort-of and almost lies to my parents on occasions. But most of them are absolutely necessary, in-the-interest-of-family-harmony lies. and if you're going to be SUPER-technical.wait no, its better you don't go to that part.

ANYWAY. now i shall introduce you to my HOT HOT going-to-be boyfriend. wait.no..its not safe. later my cousins/teachers/parents/bla bla or someone drop by this place and see his(my hot hot future-boyfriend) they'll kill me..but still, HE IS SO UBER HAWT!!..ahhhhhh hot hot hot hot hot hot hot..actually ama told me not to announce my love for him yet..so i shan't..but you should have fouund out by now that j'aime <3<3<3>

i.<3.you.

A Beautiful Disaster at Friday, June 02, 2006

Thursday, June 01, 2006

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Depression. Does this word mean anything to you? Probably not. Because you've never felt it before. Why would you care. It's not like you're the one suffering. Its not like you care. You don't know what its like when nothing feels alright. You aren't stuck inside a false life. You might never know what it feels when all around you, you see the world rushing by, yet no one sees you. almost an empty world, one of nothingness. You don't feel the sorrow, the pain of being hurt. When all you could have ever wanted crumbles in front of your very eyes, do you even know how much it kills you? NO YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE. so leave me alone. honestly its so stupid. You just smile that fake smile, laugh that fake laugh of yours and say its alright. Its so obvious you're gloating. get out of my face. I don't need you here, you aren't making me feel any better.

g.o.a.w.a.y.

A Beautiful Disaster at Thursday, June 01, 2006